The Empress, Part 2

'Dahlias and Apples' Margaret Olley

'One of the most important requirements of being creative is allowing yourself the freedom to fail.'

In my first blog about Major Tarot card The Empress I explained that she is the creator, the archetypal mother figure who brings life and creativity into the world, who manifests our desires and dreams.

I find it fascinating to learn how people create and always read with interest how writers put words onto paper. Graham Greene, considered one of the greatest writers of the 20th century was bi-polar and suffered for his art, telling his wife he had "a character profoundly antagonistic to ordinary domestic life", but that "unfortunately, the disease is also one's material". He wrote over 25 novels in his life, an amazing accomplishment. Every day he wrote for an hour, come hell or high water, it didn't matter what he was going though - life may not have come easily for him but it appears his writing did, his journals were devoid of error, his handwriting steady and sure, the stories told from start to finish, transmuted into published books with barely a correction.

On Sunday afternoon I caught a documentary on Margaret Olley, probably my favourite Australian painter. Someone being interviewed told the camera he had hoped to get to know Olley and pictured her painting serenely in her studio, working on one masterpiece at a time. But he was shocked to find her creative style mirrored her personality - full of energy - an unstoppable joie de vivre, vivacious and delightfully eccentric. She had several paintings on the go and moved between them, focusing only on the little cleared spaces where she'd set up arrangements of fruit and flowers to study in paint, for all around her was chaos. She had neither the time nor the desire to clean, all she enjoyed doing was painting and that was all she wanted to do. The births of some paintings came more easily than others she said, but the unfinished or difficult ones she thought of as stepping stones, there was often something she needed to learn from them before she could move onto an easier one.

Margaret Olley's home and studio

This is true - one of the most important requirements of being creative is allowing yourself the freedom to fail. This is why children create so freely - they have not imposed boundaries on themselves and this is surely one of the most delightful traits of innocence. Sometimes it is enough just to recognise this fear of failure and surrender control. Sometimes to be creative and make progress we need to loosen up, let ourselves play and like Margaret Olley, let things get a bit messy. If you're a perfectionist this can be terrifying, but the results are always worth it.

Jon Ronson humorously described what it was like for him as a journalist, stepping out into the naked, boundless arena of fiction writing for the first time when collaborating on the screenplay 'Frank' that was made into a movie starring Michael Fassbender:
'It was the opposite of journalism. In journalism you write what's unfolding in front of you. Journalism is a game with rules. In journalism what's acceptable is what's happened, and what's not acceptable is what didn't happen. But with fiction comes a daunting infinity. I remember staring blankly at Peter the first time he patiently said to me, 'It doesn't matter that it didn't happen. We make it up.'
Fiction seemed all about harnessing infinity.'

The Empress will always be there for us. Surrounded by healing cards such as The Star she reminds us to replenish our own creative wellspring, or with The Fool she invites us close our eyes, reclaim our innocence and take a leap of faith. Surrounded by 'negative' cards such as The Devil or in my deck the Eight of Swords, she can warn us to check that our creative tank isn't running on empty. Take time to replenish ourselves in nature, listen to music, take in a bit of culture or craft, or just spend some time alone, stop propping ourselves up with quick-fixes and bad habits - cigarettes, coffee, wine and television. Remember that the creative force within us, which lies at the heart of everything we do, sometimes needs a little nurturing herself. So take the time to stop and smell the roses - The Empress is always depicted in a beautiful garden, so you can be sure that if you take her advice the fragrance will be magnificent.

The Empress Part 1

The Empress is the mother, the creator, the nurturer. At face value this card can represent the occupation of motherhood, but on a deeper level the card represents much more. The Empress is the vessel through which we bring into being our creations - the artist, writer, composer will be familiar with her. She is the doorway from which our dreams and imaginings become reality, breathing life into our art form. How do we create? Does our Empress nurture our dreams, coaxing them gently from us? or is she at times a 'Tiger Mother', twisting and wringing our creative outlet from us, at times painfully, whilst like a child we resist, sighing and stomping our feet as we wrestle with the muse.

The Empress card in a reading can be a reminder to take a look at how we nurture ourselves, to remind us that we are all a part of the great mother Gaia herself, ever growing and changing, ever evolving. Surrounded by positive cards she fills the reading with a luxurious abundance of resources, time, acceptance, joy and universal love.

Dissecting Karl Ove Knausgaard

Only a few pages in and I was already reading an excerpt from this book to Tim over lunch:
'...nothing I had previously experienced warned me about the invasion into your life that having children entails. The immense intimacy you have with them, the way in which your own temperament and mood are, so to speak, woven into theirs, such that your own worst sides are no longer something you can keep to yourself, hidden, but seem to take shape outside you, and are then hurled back. The same of course applies to your best sides.'

And then on the next page, more fabulous food for thought about the tortured existence of being a writer, and other creative souls could associate with this too I'm sure. He starts by talking about the happiness he experiences conversing with his young daughter:
'Even if the feeling of happiness this gives me is not exactly a whirlwind but closer to satisfaction or serenity, it is happiness all the same. Perhaps even, at certain moments, joy. And isn't that enough? Isn't it enough? Yes, if joy had been the goal it would have been enough. But joy is not my goal, never has been, what good is joy to me? The family is not my goal, either. If it had been, and I could have devoted all my energy to it, we would have had a fantastic time, of that I am sure. .... I do everything I have to do for the family; that is my duty. The only thing I have learned from life is to endure it, never to question it, and to burn up the longing generated by this in writing.'

I have always kept a diary my whole life. I've never really thought about why it has been important to me, but I guess it is for this very reason - to 'burn up the longing'. If someone were to read my diary they would no doubt conclude I'm a mad woman for the majority of pages are fueled by this longing. Writing a blog is different, it is me censored for the outside world, which is what makes the pages in Karl Ove's book so captivating - he bravely lays himself bare on the autopsy slab so we the reader can enjoy poking around in the darkest corners of his psyche. His writing gives me courage to keep pen to paper.